Do you remember the night
you told me to trust you and
give you time to prove that your love was enough.
Well I did.
That day, you held my hand ,
traced my palm with your thumb soothingly . Then ,
had began tracing warm fingers over my chilling arms ,
trying to warm me up.
Trying to calm my racing heart.
When satisfied with my arms yours started towards my neck .
Put your hands lovingly on my face.
Traced my eyes ,
my cheeks ,
my lips .
Your fingers moving ever so gently
as if afraid to break their a glass vase.
After watching me intently some more ,
you came a little more closer to me than before.
Looked into my eyes longingly .
I finally gave into you and sighed.
You smiled a bit and finally collected me in your arms.
Held me close to you
but not too much , for me to feel alarmed.
We stayed like that for a few .
No words spoken between us
in that eerie silence of the night. Then finally letting me out of your hold
you kissed my forehead sweetly
holding me there for a few lingering seconds, as if trying to savour this moment.
Well I guess, I was trying to do so as well
with my eyes closed and shallow breaths.
Upon opening them you were still there waiting for me
to hold your hand and continue our journey ahead.
My hands laid loosely by my side .
They couldn’t move.
You still didn’t give up on me.
You knew who exactly I was when you accepted me.
I thought maybe seeing the real me ,
the cold hearted person I am ,
you would finally understand why I can’t be with you and leave. But ,
You took my hand into yours. Interwined our fingers as if creating some magical bond
to connect you and me .
Yes , it appeared to me like by your actions
you wanted to let me know
that this was your way of promising me
a forever without scaring me away with petty wordly confessions.
Your love was beyond pure,
It had made even my cold heart to be lured …